Let me cry just this one time,
I know you like to see me smile;
and laugh all the time.
But I am not the pretty doll anymore,
Let me cry just this one time.

Let me be real just this one time,
I know you don't quite like reality;
neither do I
But I can't be in a  fairy tale anymore
Let me be real just this one time.

Let me bare my soul out this one time
I know secrets are meant to be hidden
away for no one to find ..
But I cannot handle the guilt anymore
Let me bare my soul just this one time.

Let me just breathe this one time
I know the society likes order and peace
and I do not wish to displease them
But I cannot take these chains anymore
Let me just breathe this one time

Time and I

Time and I have share a history;

a history of mutual apathy,

mockery and abject dismal.

I refuse to give him his due

and he hates my guts.

       *****

Time has never learnt to wait

for he knows not what is love.

Ask me, what it is to wait..

what it is to long and cry

and feel the unbearable pain

and continue to wait...

*****

Time and I can never be friends.

Time and I have nothing in common

Time and I 

ignore each other

*****

I don't know Time anymore

Not that I knew him before

He does not affect me anymore

I live in my world with no Time..

*** 

Change

Seasons change;

Like the rest of us.

Some notice,

Some pretend to see

Some ignore.

Some are just far away.

Seasons change;

Like the rest of us.

Always they hope,

Never they do,

Fools don't realise,

They both don't exist

in the absolute.

Absolute is relative here

coz one day fool changes too.

Truth or Lies

In the dark corners of the mind
lies fear, anxiety and desperation
to strip naked and be true
unto me is what I want
But can you accept the truth?
Can you face the reality?
I cant be true without
hurting the people I love
I need to hence choose
Truth or the lie
Half baked truth or half baked lies
Neither will hurt you nor pain me.

Growing up

Too many words unsaid,

perhaps for the best.

Convey my fears and pains,

sorrows but all in vain.

Falling in love used to be easy

now that too seems like work.

Since when did things become so hard?

Wish I never had to grow up..

The lamb and the tyger

The lamb was slaughtered today
Making way for the Tyger's reign
The body and mind in Tyger's claws
Cringed and cried in pain.
A thunderous roar staked the claim
over the splattered blood stains
"Is it fair?", you may ask
Soon a new born lamb cries in some lane.


P.s. This was written in response to William Blake's poem Tyger which you can find here
and the image is from google.com

Dedication

24 timorese came from a faraway land

To see and learn all that they can...

Scared was I to see them all

doubted if I could handle them at all.

Soon they warmed up and spread their smiles

happiness all over SJEC and across the miles

Fathers and teachers and friends alike

began to fall for their charms in no time.

But soon tempers began to fly

Teachers too had to shout and make them cry.

Little by little progress they made

Universe and beyond did come to our aid

As I sit to write some lines today

To remember after the farewell day

I realised I am blessed with 24 angels

P.S. wrote this as a gift to all my students before they left to their country..

A look and a touch
Throbbing desires
Maddening sensations.
Pleasurable pain
Painful pleasures.
Denial and hurt
Lies and manipulations
Anger and pain
Emptiness and void.

Tell me that you love me....

Tell me that you love me..

Tell me you will stay with me..

Tell me that you will be by my side

Thick and thin, through all times.

Tell me that I am wrong

Tell me that I can be strong

Tell me that we can make it

Tell me that you are mine...

Am I asking too much?

All I want is some love.

Tell me that you love me

and I will love you back.

We can still be friends.

'We can still be friends',

she said, after they broke up.

They never discussed the how

Nobody talks about the how anyway.

A year and half with her

was a long time for him.

But longer than that

was the time needed

to forget, to erase and to heal.

Like the rest in her life, He too slipped away.

Very slowly at first...

And soon she couldn't recall his name.

' We can still be friends'

thats what she said.

You and I

If only I had known, it was to be our last ride together
the last time together
I would have perhaps created a memory for us...

You and I, we were never meant to be,
Yet lies a tiny hope somewhere to save something of "us"
And then I realise there never was' "us"

All there was, was a fragmented dream.
Nothing remained to hold on to..
it was like you and I never existed.

waiting...

Waiting for a tiny nod, waiting for a look,
waiting for that twinkle in the eye
waiting for that smile..

waiting to hear that voice
waiting to hear that sweet murmur again

Waiting for a just another ride,
to be there in that moment
when the world ceases to exist for both.

Sorry

‘Sorry' she said

'Fine' I replied.

'Sorry' she said again

Loud and clear this time.

'Why?' I thought,

It mattered no more.

All I wanted

was to know

that you cared

that you loved

and that I mattered.

But instead she said,

"Sorry."

An Introduction

How shall I define Me?

Have I known this Me?

I think not.

Yet I am told to introduce Me

So, I begin to summon the words,

weaving them together in magic.

The Angel sends: smart, caring

beautiful,kind, sweet , friendly

lovely, affectionate, cute,

energetic, funny...

All the Best words have come today

To make you love me,

admire me and respect me...

Can these words win me respect?

Can they guarantee love in life?

Painted lies and painted truth are alike

Tell you, the whole truth I must

So I call the Devil who brings along

shabby, chaotic,wild,

Egoist and restless.

More words to define me.

But somehow these words fall short.

I am more than these words,

They cannot contain me.

I am more than the Angel and the Devil in me.

I touch them all and go beyond

Encompassing them all within me, into me

And spreading across 'joy' that is truely me.

P.s. I have been asked to introduce myself in a staff meeting and hence the poem :)

The Enemy

And the snake raises its hood again
silent and bidding for the right time
to strike and destroy..
The snake has raised its hood again.

What does it want today?
what will it destroy this time?
No one knows.
The snake has raised its hood again.

Silent curses and the memory
of that last bite still fresh
Uncertainty, fear and a cold heart.
The snake raises its hood again.

Who shall strike first
Me or Him? Me or Him?
Its a game of waiting this time..
The snake has raised its hood again.

Reflection

I look at the tubes and the pipes
the machine that measures the pulse
Doctors with forceps, scalpel
and a body half slit open.

Operation theater it is;
the final act of my play
Only I have no lines this time,
Merely lie and wait for the exit.

Lifetimes of suffering
Now comes to an end
I feel no pain now..
I only feel numb.

Things to know before you fall in love!

Before you fall in love,
make sure you brace yourself
with a helmet and a guard,
a pair of boxing gloves,
and good pair of shoes
(for a quick getaway)
Few bottles of Gatorade;
is sure to do you some good.

These sure can be of some help
to save you from disasters unknown
But who is to save you
from calamities of your heart?
Your mind and soul trapped
in the eyes of someone,
in the smile of someone,
within the heart of someone!

A borrowed life

You see this room?

Nothing here is mine.

Clothes in the hanger, in the dryer

the books and CDs on the shelf,

shoes on the rack.

None of it, is mine.

They stay here, like me

as if on a visit.

I see a face in the mirror,

the image; is not me.

a stranger to myself..

many a thoughts in the head

feelings of the heart

words that say them all..

Again don't belong to me.

A Borrowed life,indeed it is.

The Tree of Knowledge

The Tree of knowledge beckons you all
To taste the forbidden apple.
Ten in number have we got them for you
Each giving you the knowledge right.
Hidden from all eyes, beneath the seat
Find them and be rich.
And hence I sing this song to you
Find them and be rich!


I am forgotten here, No one comes to me anymore
While my friend lies in one of your classrooms
Old and battered in the floor high above.
My dear brother a pompous snob,
Gets to see the events with the mob.
And my father is so tall a guy
Bigger hall you need for him to buy.
My mother dear all so sweet
Seated with the lady in waiting
Waiting and Watching, people come by.
Near her sit five black men
And there lives my cousin Ben.
Loves the bare cushion, my sister so
Lies next to it, very low.
My granny lives alone below
Hidden in an underground cell
Food is what my Uncle loves
Eat and drink is what he is doing now.
Best of all is my baby bright
Hiding away from the limelight.
Five black men guard her tight
Now begone and find them all right.

*******
P.s. This was a part of the treasure hunt that was organised by Me and the juniors for the final year students. The task was to decipher the clues and find the treasure:)

Flying high in the sky

I wish I could fly high up in the sky
high above the clouds
With a flap of my wings
I shall be beyond your reach
far far away, high above in the sky.

If I could fly high up in the sky,
I would compete with the crows,
the eagles, the sparrows and the seagulls,
higher than them all
soaring and flying
far far away,high above in the sky.

If I could fly high up in the sky,
I would go beyond the sky to the heavens
To visit the Gods and Godesses
Envy me, you will. Reach me, you cannot.
For I am
far far away, High above, beyond the skies.