Resolution

I agree i am very irregular.. blogging seemed pointless to a year ago... opinions change..:)..I am going to talk now about fears... I have soo been scared of water..my dear cuz, krishna chandran who is my maternal aunt's son, managed to drown me twice in a pond.. which left deep scars.. i remember my aunt desperately trying to teach me how to swim and how imanage to escape all those sessions.. We all manage to skillfully avoid what we fear or rather hate to face... then my mum put me in aswimming class.. well, i had fever in mornings and vomitting and stomach cramps out of my fear of water.. but then my brothe taunted me.. that just hurt my ego so bad , that i went and learnt swimming just to prove him wrong... I guess thats what you need to conquer your fear... a will and a great ego :)

So now amidst all the course planning.. I just need to do what i have to do.. All these while have been running away from lot of things..gotta put an end now.. What do i want?? If I gotta spread Guruji's knowledge, then let that be 100%.. which means..i cant run away anymore..but just stop fighting and let Him shape me the way he wants me to be.. saves trouble for both of us :)..thats the plan:)